he misses someone…who could it be??
I always remember that day.. Even if I try to forget it, I can’t do it.. It’s driving me crazy when thinking about that and I am also hoping that it will happen again.. I always imagine and day dream that it will happen again.. Much better than the first, with more talking and a clearer relationship between us.. Will you consider it as a date or just a friendly walk?? I don’t know..
As of this moment, I miss him.. :| I am trying not to think him but he automatically pops in my mind.. I know that I sounded so strange and pathetically in love with this guy.. And I am aware with that.. I wanna stop but my heart keeps on saying go on!. That maybe one day, he will fall for you.. You know what, that day, the one that I was telling you about, I felt that he like me.. I felt that we have the same feelings.. Sounds assuming but true.. I don’t know what he felt at that time because we never had a good conversation, maybe because we are not that comfortable with each other.. Strange?!
As of now, I keep on thinking about him.. Even if we seemed to be strangers.. I know, he likes someone right now.. I don’t know if it is still the same girl that he was dreaming or the one that he is with at the school all the time.. Maybe I just one of his options, but damn it hurts!! I don’t want to have this kind of “status” (being in love with a guy for 5 years but he don’t love her).. It is so hard being in this situation.. Someday, I will be with someone who will deserve all this crazy emotions.. </3